When I was diagnosed with
thyroid cancer four months ago, I knew my life would be getting a little
more hectic
in the following months. I was in the middle of PA school and was set
and ready to spend one of my 5 week rotations with Hospitals of Hope in
Bolivia. I felt everything crashing down and I was so scared of how it
would affect my future. In the midst of surgeries and dozens of
appointments with multiple doctors (GPs, oncologist, surgeon,
endocrinology, nuclear medicine and on and on), I knew that I could not
let this stop me from life and the great learning opportunities I had in
store in Bolivia. I
told my doctors that it was more important for me to go than to stay
and feel sorry for myself in preparation for my treatment in July. So
with their support and tweaking of my treatment plan by my oncologist
and endocrinologist, I loaded up a gallon sized bag with all my meds,
kissed my husband goodbye, and flew into the unknown.
The first
few weeks were a mix of exhaustion and stress as I battled to harness a
reasonable medical repertoire in Spanish; spending bursts of time flying
through 15-30 physicals in 2-3 hours at schools and orphanages;
squeezing into short trufis (taxis), hunched over for an hour to avoid
slamming my head on the roof with every little bump; stopping by the lab
during lunch to get my blood drawn a few times a week as my calcium and
thyroid levels were fluctuating rather abnormally. It was all a bit
overwhelming. But then as my place began to solidify and I knew what my
day held, it all became rather familiar and comforting. The fright of
having to take a trufi into Quiacollo to grab something dissipated. The
working through a physical with a 5-year-old boy in Spanish became
easier and I needn’t fear that I would miss something from
misunderstanding or inability to hear over the yells of his peers in the
background. Life there had become regular and routine.
From
the beginning I had known that this was meant to be an experience that
would change me. My only hope was that I would help some people along
the path of my perspective altering journey. But I knew when I arrived
that if I wanted to get anything out of this experience; it was my
responsibility to search it out. I had several encounters that made me
appreciate my life as it was, cancer and all, but by the end of my time
in Cochabamba I realized that it was not one adorable orphan that I
spent a day with, or a dying man and his family gathered in a tiny
hospital room that made an impact, but all the collective encounters and
experiences I had had. The surprise on a man’s face as I walked along
the street, the tallest and whitest person around for miles. The smiles
and soft-spoken words of the Quechua mothers as I told them that their
son merely had a viral URI and to not worry. All the people that I only
interacted with for a few minutes, but seemed so appreciative of my
time and efforts. I realized that I didn’t want to be some novelty to
them; I just wanted to be there in the background, helping them get
through colds, rashes, mundane everyday burdens. I wanted to be just
another staple in their life that they could come to for the simplest
things.
I would have been proud to have helped someone through
much bigger issues, to be a hero. But I was happy to have filled my role
as a supporting player, always there in the shadows ready to lend a
hand through any difficulties, big or small. Just someone to listen to
their troubles and stresses, clean up their scrapes and send them back
into the day with a smile. Because when it comes down to it, those are
the type of people that have really changed my life for the better.
Jessica
is a volunteer who served for five weeks at our hospital in Bolivia.
Pleaes pray with us for Jessica during this time and for complete
healing from her thyroid cancer.
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Hi,
I have a quick question about your blog, would you mind emailing me when you get a chance?
Thanks,
Cameron
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